• faith,  infertility

    INFERTILITY: A LONELY AND HEAVY CROSS

    Some stories are harder to put down in words. This is one of them. There’s no pretty way of saying it. It’s dreadfully personal, but God’s been pulling at the strings of my heart to share this story. I want to raise awareness, and shed light on infertility. It’s still a taboo topic, and can feel like a very lonely cross to bear, and yet it’s estimated that one in ten women deal with infertility. In the midst of NFP awareness week, it feels fitting to finally sit down and share my journey through the murky waters of charting biomarkers, and the light it has shed on my health issues.…

  • faith,  moments from my weekend

    LET THEM EAT CAKE (and how turning 25 makes me feel entitled to monologue on God and beauty)

    I’m a sucker for Marie-Antoinette. I still remember walking the grounds of Versailles and exploring where this young Austrian woman came to be Queen of France. My fascination is rooted in a heart moved by beauty. Sure, the opulence was extreme, and led to her demise. No question there. Yet, there is still something to be said for a heart that is seeking beauty. So often I am satisfied with what is average. Our hearts are restless until we rest in true and perfect beauty. We’re broken and we seek joy in beauty in all the wrong places, but when you find it in the One who makes all things…

  • faith

    THE FULLNESS OF GOD’S LOVE (and how I found Him in my mailbox today)

    I had such a heavy heart this morning all throughout this afternoon. Some health issues regarding my fertility had me frozen in fear and anxiety, but a ray of hope was carrying me through: every morning I start my day by spending some time reading my Bible and my devotional. This morning convicted me of the great need in my life to let God love me. Not only love me during my morning prayer time, but all throughout the day, come what may. Boy did it “come what may” today, and yet I knew I could get through it because of His grace. I was glad I had resolved the…

  • faith,  how to

    SELF CARE

    I hate the label, because I loathe how it is a lie, and does not truely define who I am, but it’s true; so very often I am a perfectionist. I can’t put things down/away. I keep working and working, and my mind is  constantly thinking of the next task that needs to be accomplished, and when I’m really burning out, I try and accomplish many tasks at once. Like writing this blog post way past my bedtime, because I need to be more consistent. Oh, the irony… This is usually when my stress levels fuel me to be really productive, but also dangerously close to having an anxiety attack. I don’t like living…

  • faith,  moments from my weekend

    LAZY SUNDAY MORNING

    Happy New Year and thanks for dropping by. I haven’t been very faithful to my little corner of the internet and I want to apologize. You see, writing brings me joy and I want to be faithful to Him who brings me joy. I want to be faithful to this space He’s given me to create what is utile dulci. I want to write and photograph beautiful things, cultivating and sharing what is useful and agreeable. I’ve had a rough Fall on all fronts: emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I have now entered a season of joy and am so happy to see this season of grief as being behind me.…