This past year my heart has been undergoing some serious growing pains. I’m learning to love. Disney doesn’t tell you how hard that is and they make you think that your happily ever after should happen in a blink of the eye. Love is slow and painful, but always the path to joy.
I am learning to say no to myself, so I can say yes to love. It’s a daily battle, but I want to keep showing up. Here’s the truth: We don’t deserve love, but we are worthy of love, because He made it so. How blessed are we that God does not tire of how undeserving we are? We are so blessed.
We are made to desire this unconditional love, because it directs our hearts to Him. Due to our fallen nature, we frequently project this need to be loved perfectly onto others, but they can never fulfill that desire, that need.
If we invite God to be Lord of our lives, if we ask for the grace to abandon our idols and make room in our heart for Him to reign, we will know this unconditional love through the gift of faith. He knows how hard it is to believe in such a love, which is why He makes His grace visible in the sacraments. As He provided the manna for our ancestors, He also gives us the daily bread in the most Holy Eucharist.
When we’ve broken communion with God through our sins and our souls, St Paul, in his letter to the Corinthians (1 Cor. 11:27-29), warns us to not approach God in our unworthiness. God knows we will fail Him, but only say the Word, and my soul shall be healed. He offers us a clean state in the sacrament of reconciliation. He is a God of mercy and just love, but He will never force His love upon us. We must approach Him with a meek and humble heart, with perfect contrition, in order to be in communion. From the cross, Jesus will beg His Father “Forgive them, for they do not know what they do”.
God is a jealous lover. He wants ALL of your heart. He will pursue you relentlessly, but never impose Himself.
Have you ever invited Him into your heart? Don’t just read about faith, act on it and tell Him: God I give myself to you with all that I am. He wants to be in relationship with you, and our earthly relationships should mirror this. I have a heart of gratitude for my love, who helps me see true Love.