My august goals have been light and fun. I’m so grateful for giving myself a bit of a break with my to-do list. I got sick twice this month – once while on vacation. No fun. God has been teaching me to rest and abide in Him through sickness. Letting go of goals and making room for His will has been restorative. I saw His grace at work this past week; a cancelled meeting that I didn’t feel ready for, a coworker volunteering to take on one of my projects and lightening my load.
At the end of the day, He knows us best and how much we can handle. I love setting goals and will continue to do so as they push me to work hard and dream big, but I want to implement one month a year where I just set light and fun goals for myself. No goals that stress me at the thought of them not being completed. One can’t live in a constant state of hustle. It’s not sustainable. Make sure to carve some space into your life to rest in Him. This is why at the end of the month I will be going on a 3 day silent retreat. Please pray for me to be open to whatever God wants to do and teach me during this time and please let me know if I can pray for you in any specific way while I am on retreat.
March is here and with it the beginning of Lent. I am looking forward to it. Is that strange? I just find this liturgical season such a beautiful opportunity to examine your life and see how you are bringing glory to God. Hubby and I have decided to go meatless for the 40 days. I have a few spiritual books lined up as well. I’m going to read through The Imitation of Christ and Searching for and Maintaing Peace.
Some years I have been super type A about Lent and had a pretty detailed plan of what I would do. This year I’m trying to lean into choosing the better part and sitting at His feet. I’m setting myself a few goals for the month, but I won’t beat myself over the head if I don’t get them done. I don’t think Christ will care so much about the artwork up on my walls, but rather if I loved well.
Gently get back into my stretching exercise routine (I’m post laparoscopy surgery so some stretches are still a little difficult);
Go on a romantic getaway with hubby;
Drop off donation bag that has been on our bedroom floor for over a month – eek;
Hang up new artwork;
Plan (depending on mother nature, create) my Spring capsule wardrobe;
Find some vegetarian recipes on Pinterest for Lent;
This month is filled with doodles of leaves and Fall inspired pictures gathered from Pinterest. I love that the air here in Ottawa has gotten crisp and that I can wear cozy sweaters and drink heaps of tea to keep my hands warm. I went and bought my favourite candle, Autumn, at Bath and Body Works on August 31st. Since then it’s been burning and making me want to cozy up my entire apartment with candles and heaps of throws. How do you transition your home into Fall?
I wanted to set up a weekly layout instead of just doing some rapid bullet entries this month. When I’m feeling anxious I like to see my week at a glance. Coming up with new layouts also brings me so much joy. I recently saw Transforming Beauty‘s post on Instagram which reads: “May your life be well ordered so your art can be wild”. I’ve been trying to live that and I see so much truth in it. It’s what motivated this blog in the first place. I was living an ordered life when I began writing consistently, and was so creative during that season. I want to get back to that place.
If you’re unfamiliar with the bullet journal concept, it’s pretty much the best thing since sliced bread. You can find out more here. I’ve been using it on and off for the past three years, and I just love it’s flexibility and ability to store all the swirling thoughts in my mind. Please keep me in your prayers this week, that it might be well ordered, and that my art be wild.
It’s infertility awareness week. It’s something I don’t talk about much, but it doesn’t mean it shouldn’t be discussed. I wrote about my struggles with subfertility last year, and the response I got was overwhelming. There are so many hearts that are breaking over this heavy cross – mine included.
A cloud of darkness has overshadowed me since I was diagnosed with PCOS and my faith has been struggling. Yet I can’t help but see that in the midst of all of this pain, all of this suffering, there is good that has emerged from it. There’s no denying that my faith is being stretched and I am being called to mature in my relationship with God. This is not a season of consolations. God is asking me to seek Him despite the pain, despite unanswered prayers, and I am. I seek Him, because I know that He loves me.
He looks at my heart, as He pours His out, hanging on the cross. The cross is the reminder that He bore the ultimate suffering so that I would never have to buy the lie that I am alone. Whatever pain, whatever struggle you are facing, you are not alone. You are loved by a God who has made you and known you from the womb. He keeps a record of every tear you cry. There is no suffering in which Jesus does not accompany you. The Lord has promised to deliver us from our distress.
I reflect on the sweetness of my honeymoon spent in the Rocky Mountains, and all of the beauty of God’s wilderness I saw during that week. That beauty remains in the depth of my heart.
For the mountains may go away and the hills may totter, but my faithful love will never leave you, my covenant of peace will never totter, says Yahweh who takes pity on you. Isaiah 56:10
I was in need of this verse today, of the truth of His deep, unmoving love. My prayer is that if you are feeling despair, you would know you are not alone.